I Don’t Want To

I Don’t Want To

I don’t want to, not today!  But you force me
Into your world and call it reality
I don’t want to have to pretend to be
Your normal, OK?
When every day
Isn’t OK.

Those positive thinkers think positively
And they make me want to just groan
It doesn’t change a thing, at least not for me,
Denial never was my zone.

I don’t want to care today! Leave me alone!
Not that I want to strike an unfriendly tone,
I don’t even want to complain or moan,
Just don’t make me
Keep faking
Everything.

I can visualize heaven and world peace,
If believing would bring seeing.
Also love and joy and an end to disease
When are those coming into being?

Call me selfish, I don’t want to care today,
I’m tired of pretending; I want things my way,
And if I can’t have what I want, I want to stay
In a safe place;
In a quiet space,
Like outer space.

Are you getting the wished feelings I’m sending?
I’m visualizing, praying, pretending
That this poem, right along with this feeling
Is ending.

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5 thoughts on “I Don’t Want To

  1. Kudos for following through on posting the poem. Now you make take off your pants, eat ice cream from the carton with a giant spoon, and ponder the meaning of…nothing.

    Well, my therapist always said set that one goal, meet it, then let yourself just be. Maybe the pantless and ice cream things are just me…

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